Sorry I haven't updated in awhile.  I'm addicted to MySpace so I don't really get on this thing much.  But I thought I'd do something fun.......you know how when you were in elementary school, you had to do a little essay when you got back to school about what you did this summer?  I thought I'd give you a little picture story about my summer...haha!

I got to see the Black Crowes in concert even though I missed out on Bonnaroo.

I found a boyfriend at VBS who not only wears cowboy boots, but watches the Dukes of Hazard!

I shot things.

I hung out with Sophia and Sweet Baby James

I went to the Bonsai place on the way back from Florida!

My little brother got a new car!

And I did a lot of sitting around in jeans and cowboy boots!

That's about all that went on in southeast alabama this summer!

I can't sleep cause I'm too pumped about seeing Foo Fighters and Weezer so I get to bore you with this shiznit...

In the last 48 Hours have you...

1. Had sex: Nope

2. Bought something: Food

3. Gotten sick: No

4. Sang: Yes....to Foo Fighters!

5. Been kissed: No

6. ate something: Lots of fattening lard goodness

7. Felt stupid: I'm sure

8. Talked to an ex: Nopers

9. Missed someone: Yeah...my family....Sundays always make me miss them.  Oh to watch nascar with Daddy again.....

10. Hugged someone: Yes, Tinius hugged me goodbye at lunch and therefore want to bear my children.  And I hugged the little kids I babysit for goodnight. 

Last person who....

1. Slept in your bed: Me...besides that....some random guy I brought home.  Jk.  I'm random but not with guys. 

2. Saw you cry: People at church this morning

3. Made you cry: The hurricane victims

4. You went to the movies with: Amanda and Allison at the drive in....it's been awhile

5. You went to the mall with: I dunno

6. One thing you could take back: Well....if I hadn't already worn these cute burgundy shoes I bought I'd take them back to McRae's cause they hurt my feet.

Have You Ever...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yes...I'm a lover not a hater

2. Got in a fight with your pet: No.  Zoso rocks my face off.  Harley is just a spaz.

3. Been to California: I wish. 

4. Been to Mexico: No.

5. Been to China: No...but I want to see the Great Wall of China before I die.  I have seen Big Bird Goes To China more times than I can count

6. Been to Canada: No and I don't think I want to.  Seems boring.  But what do I know
7. Been to Europe: Again....I wish.

8. Wished you were the opposite sex: not really that I can think of

Random...

1. Do you have a crush on someone: I ALWAYS have a crush...if not several

2. What book are you reading now: The Optimist's Daughter and Searching for God Knows What

3. Worst feeling in the world: Having to pee really bad

4. Future KIDS names: Jagger, Dax, Izzy, Jude, and Lucy.....at the least.  hahahaha

5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Puff

6. What's under your bed: That's a scary question

7. Favorite sport to watch: Football and baseball

8. Location: Nashvegas

9. Piercing/Tattoos: I want my nose pierced and two tatoos on my wrists but...no.

10. Do you drink: I have a little before.

11. What are you most scared of right now: I dunno

12. Where do you want to get married: Who gives a crap....

13. Who do you really hate: I dunno

14. Do you have a job: Babysitting

15. Do you like being around people: oh yeah

16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with? Me...have no chance with someone....haha....that's funny

17. Have you ever cried: duh

18. Are you lonely right now: nope

19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Here I go Again by Whitesnake

Have you Ever:

1. Been in love: no

2. Played strip poker: no

3. Gotten beaten up: in 1st grade

4. Done an all-nighter: all the tiz-ime

5. Been on radio/TV: yeah....I was a DJ

6. Been in a mosh-pit: not a really real one. 

7. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: Yes and I LOVE them!

8. Skinny dipped: Oh yes....probably more times than I've swam with a swimsuit on

God has blessed me so much.  I have amazing friends and roomates and family.  This summer I got to thinking about change a lot.  I am one of those people who struggles with my "comfort zone".  I find it easy to just give in to mediocracy and stay stagnant.  It would be so easy to move back home, get married, have kids, live near my parents, go to little league games, and lead that type of life.  But I know that change is inevitable.  I know that comfort doesn't equal peace or that easy living doesn't mean I am in God's will.  I want the kind of life that I feel God has called me to.  One that is full and abundant.  One that people look at and see passion.  I want a life full of love and adventure and selfless giving.  I do not want to become stagnant. 

Today was one of those perfect days where I feel so in tune with God and with the flow of his love.  Allison Drake and I sat on the balcony and watched the sun fade and the sky go from blue to pink to orange to black.  I ate pop ice and listened to Nick Drake and The Shins and Aretha Franklin and the Foo Fighters and Patsy Cline.  I thought about how each night God paints a different sunset.  I thought of him as an artist, dipping his fingertips in paint and swirling the clouds and colors around to create this beauty for us to get a glimpse of His glory.  Every day, he changes things.  The sunsets, the sky.  People are born and they die and they grow.  There is nothing more that I can do than to listen to him and go where He takes me.  And there is beauty in this change. 

A couple of weeks ago, I heard Donald Miller speak and he read the author's note from his new book..."Through Painted Deserts".  It reaffirmed everything I had been thinking.  I feel like God is preparing me for something and I don't know what....but that's okay with me.  I like the excitement of uncertainty.  Anyway....this writing gave me chills....

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/0785209824/104-2710165-3115944?v=glance

"No, life cannot be understood flat on a page. It has to be lived; a person has to get out of his head, has to fall in love, has to memorize poems, has to jump off bridges into rivers, has to stand in an empty desert and whisper sonnets under his breath:

I'll tell you how the sun rose
A ribbon at a time... "

How true is that?  Sometimes I'm scared of falling into a pattern of mediocracy.  But, I want desperately to go jump off bridges, and find untraveled dirt roads, and explore decaying barns.....and live. 

Maybe I'm rambling, and I don't make any sense to you.  Or maybe you understand what I'm saying.  But God has laid this idea on my heart and I had to get it out.  So take it as you will and be blessed.